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Basics

Straight/Gay/Bi: Lesbian (not from Lesbos, sadly - I mean the homosexual kind).
Single?: And not about to change that.
Birthdate: January 16.
Your age: No comment.
Age you act: I like to think I'm ageless.
Age you wish you were: Ten years younger.
height: 5'7"
Eye color: Hazel.
Happy with it?: Yeah, my eyes change colors and are pretty in general. But my eyesight is pretty terrible.
Hair color: Some weird color that isn't brown and isn't blonde.
Happy with it? Sure, why not?
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty. I wish I were ambidextrous; that would be SO COOL!
Your living arrangement: I live with my family.
Your family: Let's not talk about them.
Have any pets?: Two cats: Amelia and Eleanor.
What's your job?: Acting and learning. And I don't get paid.
Piercings?: One hole in each ear.
Tattoos?: After having to convince my friend not to give her boyfriend one and have her boyfriend give her one, there's no way I'd get a tattoo.
Obsessions?: The meaning of life. LOL.
Addictions?: Chocolate.
Do you speak another language?: Yo hablo un poco de espanol.
Have a favorite quote?: Too many to count.
Do you have a webpage?: This is my webpage.

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you live in the moment?: Sometimes. But not thinking about the future or the past is just stupid.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Hardly.
Do you have any secrets?: If I did, would I tell you that?
Do you hate yourself?: No. But I don't like myself.
Do you like your handwriting?: Yes. It's legible and not girly.
Do you have any bad habits?: Most definitely.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: "You have pretty eyes." Or a dancer's body, or acting skills. Or they say I'm smart or have a nice voice. I get lots of compliments.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Outside Looking In.
What's your biggest fear?: Dying before I get the chance to do anything.
Can you sing?: People tell me I can, so I can.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Not to look cool, but if I'm in another place for just a day sometimes it's fun to not be me.
Are you a loner?: That's a difficult question. I have friends and I'm the leader of my little group. But I don't feel like any of them are really my friends. We're just connected somehow.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I don't think so.
Are you a daredevil?: When I have to be.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yes.
Are you passive or aggressive?: I dislike passive-aggressive people. They think they're subtle and they're not. I'm aggressive when I have to be but usually I justdo my own thing and people don't bother me.
Do you have a journal?: Since January 10, 2004.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength... maybe my ability to listen. And my weakness is easy: emotions. But I hide those so I'm pretty much okay.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I would be less of a procrastinator. And more kind/tolerant.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yes.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Yes, but luckily I still have my whole life ahead of me.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Life is always interesting. Good or bad? I can't really say.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Life is what you make of it. To quote Mr. Knightley from Emma by Jane Austen: "There is one thing which a man can always do, if he chuses; and that is his duty..."
What do you like the most about your body?: The fact that it moves around. I can jump and spin and stretch. It's pretty fun.
Do you think you are good looking?: I'm no model, but I'm not ugly either.
Are you confident?: When other people are counting on me, I have to be, so I am. But on my own I'm not that confident in myself.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I like to think I'm like Mr. Knightley from Emma. But that's just wishful thinking.
Are you perceived wrongly?: Most definitely.

Do You...

Smoke?: My grandfather died of lung cancer, if that answers your question.
Do drugs?: No.
Read the newspaper?: I read the comics.
Pray?: I am not religious.
Go to church?: Not since I finally got out of the system.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: I give them time to say who they are, and if I don't know them I block them.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: There isn't enough room, but my cats sleep on my bed.
Take walks in the rain?: When I can.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: I live with people I don't like. I work with people I don't like. The answer is yes.
Drive?: I don't even want to learn, but I have to in about another year.
Like to drive fast?: NO.

Have You Ever?

Liked your voice?: I don't really know what it sounds like, but other people like it, so sure.
Been out of the country?: No.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: No.
Been in love?: Yes. It hurt.
Done drugs?: No, and you already asked that.
Gone skinny dipping?: Yes, when I was so young nobody would have cared anyway.
Had a medical emergency?: No. I broke my arm once, and once I cut my forehead and had to have the cut glued together with surgical glue, but I wouldn't have died so those don't count.
Had surgery?: If surgical glue counts, yes. I don't really count it, but as I would have needed stitches if they had run out of the glue (which they nearly did), I guess it could count.
Ran away from home?: No, I need to get through school.
Played strip poker?: No.
Gotten beaten up?: By myself, yes.
Beaten someone up?: Myself.
Been picked on?: People have spread rumors about me, but I consider myself lucky that they haven't said anything mean to me. And they don't really say mean things about me, just untrue things.
Been on stage?: All my life.
Slept outdoors?: Yes, under the stars in a sleeping bag at dance camp.
Thought about suicide?: Thought about it? Yes. Actually contemplated doing it? No.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yes.
If yes, what is your record?: I fell asleep the next morning. It barely counted as an all nighter.
Gone one day without food?: I've gone a few days without food many times, just because I keep forgetting to eat.
Talked on the phone all night?: No.
Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Yes. I'm lesbian, so it's not that hard to do.
Slept all day?: My record is 2 PM.
Made out with a stranger?: I haven't even had my first kiss.
Had sex with a stranger?: No.
Thought you're going crazy?: For three years of my life.
Kissed the same sex?: I wish!
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Again, I wish.
Been betrayed?: By myself.
Had a dream that came true?: All the time. I have weird little psychic visions. Like once I dreamed I looked at a cookie that had a bite out of it. The next day I looked at a cookie in the same place as the dream, with the exact same bite, in the exact same position. Little stuff like that.
Broken the law?: No.
Met a famous person?: I probably have and just don't remember.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: I step on bugs sometimes.
On purpose?: See above.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: No. People tell me things all the time and I keep them secret when they tell me to. Although I do sometimes tell my mom, without using names.
Stolen anything?: From around the house, yeah. But actual stealing? No.
Been on radio/tv?: Yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: No. I don't go to those sorts of places.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes.
Bungee jumped?: Sadly, no.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: All the time.

Beliefs

Believe in life on other planets?: Numerically, it's probable. But I don't care one way or the other.
Miracles?: Again, never thought about them.
Astrology?: No. Who does?
Magic?: Not as such.
God?: No.
Satan?: No.
Santa?: He's just an anagram of Satan. I believe in them both the same amount.
Ghosts?: I don't have any proof but if one appears to me I won't tell it that it doesn't exist.
Luck?: Sure.
Love at first sight?: If it does exist, it doesn't manifest itself until you've actually gotten to know the person.
Tags:
Current Mood:
crappy crappy
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I was born eighteen days late, and nearly strangled myself. I guess if I were any less lucky I would have sustained brain damage. As it is I'm very smart, and as far as I can tell I'm no less healthy than anyone else. I have a good metabolism and pretty eyes. I survived through coming out to the world in eighth grade, and nobody hates me. People trust me with their secrets. If I do have to write those down here, I'll change names. Like, someone named Bob would be changed to He-With-The-Attribute-Or-Habit-By-Which-I-Know-Him.

In the next little while, there will be things in posts which might be confusing. Like, I might mention "page 88" or "the path" or any number of weird little unspecified things. I'll define them once and once only, and that will be the first time they pop up. The terms will be mentioned in the tags, so as not to be confusing.

To keep my word I guess I'd better tell you about page 88 and the path now.

Page 88 - the page in my journal where I first wrote down I was in love. I don't know why I'd mention it here other than as an example of weird undefined terms, but you never know.

The path - refers to the path I take when I walk home from school. Walking to school on the path is very alien to me, and I almost never do it. Walking home, though, I know it very well. One of these days I'll write a whole entry on it, but that day is not today.

I don't like titles. They bother me. As a result, some of my entries will not have very good ones. I'll try to go by content, but often I write about multiple things, so don't trust a single-subject title because there will usually be more than just that subject in the entry.

As you probably read in my bio, I'm lesbian. If you didn't bother to read my bio, and don't like reading about a girl who is attracted to other girls, you can leave now and delete this page from your history. I won't be offended. As you probably didn't read in my bio, I love musicals. Usually I'll have a song stuck in my head from some awesome show that I will tell you to go see or at least rent the DVD of. You don't really have to see them - but I do recommend it highly!

Some other little things... I'm not Christian but I love musicals about any part of the Bible. Those stories are just so cool. What I don't like is how people use the Bible as a rulebook. Once you get past all the things people say God said, it's really just a compilation of cool stories that are nearly too impossible to be true. Maybe they happened and maybe they didn't - they're fun to read about but they don't rule my life, just like "Fox in Socks" and "Freaky Green Eyes" don't rule my life.

I've only ever been in love once and I'm not done yet. I've been in this state for over four years now and it's just another part of me. Pretty neat, huh? Except I feel guilty because I want to have my first kiss, and since I'm still in love with somebody who doesn't like girls that way I can't bring myself to do anything but ignore my lack of any sort of love life. I could never go out with somebody I didn't like, because it would hurt them if they ever found out I was in love with someone else. I don't use people. Maybe that's why they trust me so much. Everything I do is to help them - even if I do nothing.

I wonder what would happen if somebody tried to help me. I think the universe would explode. I don't exactly need help; my life is good and I am very lucky.

Well, I'll end the intro here because there's too much speculation. But yeah, look out for that USB dongle goblin - he's vicious.

Current Location:
A quiet house... strange...
Current Music:
"All For the Best" from Godspell
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